Hail the Ice Queen

For someone who is deeply expressive, I’m seriously lacking in emotions sometimes. I never cried when a loved one passed away, or get choked up during pathetically sad movies. I’m better at articulating feelings of anger and sadness than actually feeling them. When something truly shocking and tragic happens, I usually have this cloak of absolute apathy cover me. I don’t think I’m a cold person, or a heartless person, so I wonder how and why I can be so impassive, so unfeeling. It bothers me because I care for so many people, places and things, and I am so passionate in my beliefs and in the things that I set out to do - I don’t want to be seen as the Ice Queen who is callous and unconcerned. But it’s one thing to verbalize all these feelings, and it’s another to actually feel these feelings, and it’s odd that I find it so difficult to do the latter.